Dr. Maria DeBlassie

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My Home, Myself After Cleaning Out My Closets

There is nothing but space and light where once old lives and whispers of the past used to live. It is a delicious feeling of wholeness in the empty spaces carved out of your closets and cabinets, a sweet fullness in yourself as you acknowledge that to move forward you must let go of the remnants of other selves haunting your home.

Your bedroom closet now resembles those spacious, clutter-free works of art you see in home magazines: everything in its place, easy to see and flip through as you prepare for your day one piece of your ensemble at a time.  It is now your collection of things that make you who you are, plates of armor that protect you as you make your way in the world, bits of art that you proudly display on your body, visual expressions of your inner essence.  Gone are the things that you once tried to fit into.  You said farewell to the too tame traditional wardrobe staples that will never be your style.  And another to the outlier impulse purchases that gave only a brief flash of confidence as you swiped your credit card to purchase them, only to get home and realize you are not, in fact, a woman who will ever wear this or that.

Your hallway closet--your storage closet--too is blissfully organized with seldom used but necessary things: the bin of winter holiday decorations, the file box of important papers (whittled down after shredding several years' worth of unnecessary ephemera), the stack of boxes, reserved for future moves.  And yet it breathes free and easy from the one hundred other things you stuffed in there--Very Important Documents that, you realize, you have not touched for over a year and, in fact, had forgotten about, and so must not be so Very Important after all.

Your home feels this lightening up as if each piece of clothing or old household item you donated has liberated it in the same way it has liberated you.  It can breathe again, no longer weighed down by things that don't belong there.  You love this lightness and want to nourish it as it nourishes you.  You don't want to weigh it down with anything else or fill up those spaces with something new.  You simply want to enjoy the new space you've created, both in your home and in you, new space, new life that you can grow into.  For now, it is enough to know it is there, a bubble of potential.

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